the loss of a loved ones

Atuk who seemed strong and always determined telah kembali ke rahmatullah yesterday at 10.30am. And what was worse when I was not able to see arwah atuk during his last breath. My only visit was last week when he was in the hospital.

Yes, I was selfish because I still had plans going jalan raya with my friends and halfway through the jalan raya, I planned to visit my atuk thinking that he was going to be fine like he always do. And that moment strucked me as I was about to step out of my house when abah called and said atuk was gone. What a big mistake I've made in my life.

Seeing my grandmother cried was so painful. How do you bear the pain of losing someone whom you loved so much after being with him/her for your whole life? No matter what, we had to let him go. Semoga tuhan mencucuri roh ke atas dirinya dan digolongkan di antara orang-orang yang beriman. Amin. And after so many years, finally I get to visit my arwah nenek's grave. Rindu sangat dekat dia. :(

Not forgetting family and friends who gave their heartfelt condolences. And also to my best friends and Sutris for coming down being there for me and my family. Thank you guys!